al666insongs

Hell yeah. Another full band live over-dubbing, this time somewhat in dialogue with Efraim’s vocals, but not really, but I think sounds cool with the combative nature of the sound-scape. I sing Efraim’s lyrics with him at the line “I hope you know that you’re mine, yeah we’re pals,” because I love it and we are.

The Loved Ones

I have all of this anger
I try to repress
because anger is failure
of the heart, manifest
and depression, it thickens
despite blessings I’m given
cause it isn’t what you have it’s who
and darling it feels hopeless if I don’t have you.

Sometimes I feel like the world’s at its end
but I drink a little coffee, I can manage again
enough to bury what I’m thinking
in a script or in a song
and catharsis taken care of
I exhale and carry on

I try not to worry over trivialities
but sometimes I’m so lonely
that I can’t hardly breathe
Stress is the reaction to threat of death
a mouse in the sight of a hawk can attest
Every girl I ever fell in love with, it’s a few
from middle school to college,
now I speak to their memory through “you”

And sometimes I get more specific
but when I do then I wish that I didn’t
You don’t want to play cards
that you’re not gonna win
like I don’t want to stretch a line
that is already thin.

expressive in the best way
you have the best face
nervous as you were
holding my head from behind
gripping my neck with your fingers,
your thumbs on my spine
but I didn’t mind
you can exhaust my air supply
any time
it reminds me that I’m alive

I hope you know that you’re mine
yeah we’re pals
and we love each other

you didn’t seem to notice  
you were choking me
and I didn’t say shit
because I like it when I can’t breathe

That after death your hair and fingernails
continue to grow is a lie
the skin simply shrivels back
to expose the roots inside.